A Child's Parental Grudge
What are parents?
Children dictators.
Some are benevolent. Some are cruel. Some in between and some all or both.
But the essential truth is: every parent thinks they "own" their children.
They made them. Yet they didn't make a chair. They made another human. And humans don't like being controlled by other humans.
We don't like to be "owned" and dictated to.
Parents like to crow they "gave us life" but that was then. This is now. A box of Pandora once opened cannot be closed.
If a human is too stupid to know they're creating a fellow human and not a toy that talks, they deserve the result.
A parent creates their own fault.
A child deserves all they can get.
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Tomorrow is Mother's Day and to say I have a grudge against her is being gentle.
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Who are parents?
Humans you have to deal with all the time for at least a few years. You can't get rid of them until you can physically run away and stay alive without them.
When we meet people we don't like we don't hang out with them again.
Avoiding your parents is impossible. They're the landlord, cop, teacher, judge, jailer and cockblocker (if you're a boy). They are the roommate who won't go away. The friend who is unendingly overbearing.
Parents are the slave master. Children are the slaves. "Do this or else."
So it'a little wonder we all feel conflicted at best about them. They were nice to us often and were horrible to us very often. They dictated to us for years and years and we had to deal with it. Because we were't big enough to get them out of our face and not good at life enough to not need them.
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My mother is my enemy.
If I hear she died I will blink and keep going.
If I never talk to her again, all's the better.
I know it's important for you girls to know how a potential boyfriend treats his mother.
Why?
My mother is not you.
You I want to be awesome for. You I want to be a hero to. You I want to love and protect and be selfless about.
My mother can go fuck herself with the world's largest skyscraper.
You may feel the same about your father. Allow me to assist you in helping him do the same.
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Parents think they did such an important thing - making us - that they have carte blanche forever after.
They do not. They are no more important to us than they allow themselves to be. A parent who is forever an ally deserves ally treatment.
My ex-mother in law was somewhat like that to me! her son-in-law. It was nice. I never knew what it was like to hug a mother figure and enjoy it - if it wasn't one of my babysitters. Someone paid to love me.
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A parent who is often an enemy deserves enemy treatment. "Respect your elders"? When they earn it.
My mom is a woman. Therefore I am inclined to be nicer to her than I was to my dad. And yet my dad was a better ally (for a time) than my mom. My dad was my friend for many years.
My mom was never my friend.
My mom did things perfectly legal to me and perfectly horrible nonetheless.
She hit me. Every time I was "bad". She sent me away when I was having trouble in school. Trouble she caused by getting me in trouble with the school. She took my money - cash out of my wallet. She went through my things. She gave me little privacy or time to just be myself whenever she was around. I couldn't keep my room in the state I wanted it and couldn't decorate it as I wished and I couldn't ever lock my door!
That's a sample.
Whenever my mother is very nice to me I am able to forget all that. But when she gets mean with me I remember.
I am a vengeful person. I don't hate all humanity. I hate a few specific people. Everyone else is basically cool until further information. But those few people I am going to make suffer. Non-violently and legally.
I am going to get them back.
That includes my mother.
If "getting her back" means I simply let her die alone and hated by her only son, that'll do.
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