I may have used that nickname partially for two other girls but henceforth, it's doesn't mean them. It means You, girl whose name I do not know.
I have before hinted when I talked like that I was actually talking to a named person but now I am not.
"Dear Spitfire" means Dear Forever-girlfriend Unknown.
*****
Dear Spitfire,
This girl who has been using me, ad nauseam to myself, will not do that anymore.
Who are you? Where are you? The search resumes for real.
You're not in New York. You're not in a big city. Know how I know? I hate them. Don't want to live anywhere near them. Since we're so similar and as a girl you're first to all knowledge, you already figured that out.
So now I gotta go find you. By "go" I mean a combination of online and physical adventures in search of you. All of which will go online for the real world to enjoy.
*****
I am fine, despite having the love rug ripped out from under me by that woman for the final time.
She's been reading this newspaper and probably is reading this. And using me to embolden herself. I, rarely giving up on something I want, hadn't given up.
But after having me arrested for... I still don't know, she began again, to talk to me in IGpost-code, referencing what I've written to her directly many times. Which for someone who's supposed to be frightened is a strange thing to do.
Not for someone who is mean however.
I being head over heals re+arded, kept letting her do it. And even now feel a residual pull to really make this to her but it ain't. Because she doesn't love me. Won't ever love me. She'll use me as she feels helpful and I am worth more than that.
I don't wish ill on her but whatever dbag she gets with...
Don't care. You. Let's talk about You.
If you're reading this and haven't contacted me yet please do it! But I figure I'll, have to find you. So we can read this, all this that I will write to you, later.
I got really scared about an hour ago because she did something hostile to me - a naval "attack" over the internet, by blocking me who wasn't bothering her there - which told me "that friendly isn't friendly".
After already going through the ringer for her once I am not going to repeat it. I tried my best when I thought she wanted it, secretly.
Luckily I am hundreds of miles from enemy vessels. But in this day.,. using the 1st Amendment... well it was never good. They found ways to arrest Emma Goldman no matter what.
