I am listening to "Moby Dick" the movie in the background while I try to figure out what to do with 24/7/365 except tell you I can't figure out what to do.
Here I am. Adult human with no cares upon my time. What do I do with myself?
I know what I want to be doing with myself. You, Lightning. But you, don't love me, because you don't know me. Therefore I gotta get you to know me.
First I have to figure out who, you are. And that's the hard part. I thought I had done that but wrong. So back at square uno, yet the best boy alive, I gotta find you, so you can find me fantastic.
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I have turned this apartment into a submarine. Red lights on in all "compartments". And so many compartments despite really only being five rooms. I am an interior decorating genius. I am a genius about a lot of stuff.
And contrary to what you could think of my arrogance, it's an earned, genius. Since I haven't had a real job since 2009 (awesome substitute teacher), I have worked on everything I enjoy. Child's playtime over 16 years allowed me to learn, a lot, about a lot. To hone my skills towards being, better, overall, than any other man.
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I will love you until I find you, Lightning.
Manifesting to the extreme: I want true love with you more than every other goal I've ever had combined. I focus on this quest every moment I am awake.
I have to find you eventually. As I sit here unsure of my next moves, I know yet I will figure them out. You can't work on a problem with tenacity over time and not solve it. I have unlimited, time. And unending tenacity!