Also you're joking about something serious in a relaxed way.
That means you're getting more chilled out about your future. "I might be happy after all".
Hi I'm part of after all, I hope.
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I am more than and not your psychiatrist.
That's a weird dude with a degree.
But a great lover heals all wounds.
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Your numbers are blah.
You are not.
All that crap is almost out of your control.
You're getting funnier. Sexier. More outside the box artistic.
I can't guarantee you're going to be famous. I want you to be. But if you don't do really different crazier wilder shocking comedy or anything more unforgettable by randos...
You're great. I know it. I have a history degree. I know you're generationally talented and getting better.
I know you could be on SNL this Saturday and be good.
Gatekeepers don't care. The programming of IG etc is for their benefit, not yours. Lorne Michaels of billions has to like you.
Until you go around or through their gates by being the only person doing something unique you could sit where you are follower wise.
Podcast good idea.
Radio is fun because you can be off camera. Recording a podcast on camera is hip but it ruins the magic of talking while not being seen.
Here are some radio tips:
If you can really imagine flying an airplane in a dogfight = driving your car trying to run people off the road with your horn...
That's how you defeat someone on the radio. Your thoughts swirl as you dive and swoop about in your mind, after them. After the winning words.
It's not about saying the right thing, It's about making your opponent sound afraid. You focus on their vulnerabilities as a person. Once you hear them retreat you're on their tail.
Then really let them have it.
You have great weapons.
Four fifty cals and a 20mm cannon, Lightning.
Your truth, said with passion, will blow them up.
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Only listen.
Do not use your eyes. Do not let your mind wander off keeping them sounding like you are controlling the conversation.
If they land something = you feel suddenly deflated, wrench them off your tail by changing the subject dramatically.
Do not think about what they say.
Just win the dis war. Even suttle slights are heard by the audience. Slight back with a fury.
You don't have to talk the most to win. All you need to do is hear, that you have savaged them, and they only got scratch damage on you.
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Almost to New Rochelle.
I thought spelling your name with two els for hell "Rachell" would be cool. Rachell Tokarnage.
I'm standing in the vestibule like Tuesday's photo. Didn't get a seat yet. Trying to avoid it.
I want to be alone.
Instead of being watched which because I am so conspicuous doing nothing I have to isolate myself physically to write to you unencumbered. By me noticing other girls. One just walked by behind me talking and I got all excited hearing her voice.
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I have the world's best summer shoes.
Vince's Village Cobbler is making me an outer sock of leather, so I can wear them in deep snow.
I looked for you a little as I walked when I was in Your district. Little red bombshell.
Did you see someone walking pell mell in traffic this midweek?
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I have no experience doing a podcast on camera.
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