The All Hearing Ears

"That's why I have to have it. It's like spinach for Popeye Bourne."

-Me on Cannabis

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From: Wolf Alexander <thespitfirehunter@gmail.com>
Date: Sat, Nov 16, 2024, 7:58 AM
Subject: The All Hearing Ears
To: Seth Sturm <sethsturm@gmail.com>

And the all seeing eyes.

*****

That's how I get while high. I hear, everything and the meanings behind the sound. I see, everything and the reasons behind the movements.

Paranoia. From weed? Do you get that?

May I tell you what it really is?

When you use marijuana your "hunter-gatherer" kicks in. Your ancient, our ancient, "built for the wilderness" skill set gets activated when we flood our brain with cannabinoids.

So if you get high in the parking lot of Staples, and then you go in, you may feel extreme anxiety. You may think everyone is looking at you and knows what you're thinking. 

You aren't wrong, exactly.

When high--when in "wilderness mode"--you are attuned to observations of hidden and subtle facts. 

You read body language and hear undertones. 

We communicate without meaning to constantly. And when you're not high you don't notice, constantly. But when you are high, you notice. You pick up those signals. And since these signals are universal, even among other animals, you can understand them. At least enough to know you are getting something, even if you can't consciously translate it.

If you aren't aware that's what's happening when you smoke ganja, it feels like paranoia. Because suddenly you are a hell of a lot more observant, but you don't understand all these new observations, and that's scary.

Pot awakens your sixth sense and opens your third eye.

*****

What are you picking up while high?

Example: You enter a small park with chairs and benches. 

There are other people there.

Despite civilization, we see all other humans as potential threats, and possible mates. Those are the calculations every person in the park is making about you as you sit down.

"Is this newcomer going to hurt me and/or do I want to have sex with her?"

Since that's all we are really programmed for-- having sex and avoiding death--that's all there is to consider. 

Deep down.

That's "wilderness mode."

In wilderness mode, you "feel" those thoughts from others. You feel everyone in the park asking themselves "will she kill me/do I want to have sex with her?"

You sense their answers. If you're a girl and a boy wants you, you can tell. If a boy is afraid of you, you can tell.

You can do that without, weed. Lots of practice. But with weed you can know more. Much more. And you can then send out your own signals to affect the situation how you want.

Imagine there's a boy staring at you from across the park. You don't like it. Why? Because you know he has "an intention." Or at least a strong desire. And you don't know him. If he was your boyfriend that intense attention would please you. But not from a stranger. That makes you paranoid.

What can you do? Well you can pick up your phone, and call, or pretend to call (your own voicemail works) someone while staring right back at him.

He will think "oh fuck she's calling the police or her boyfriend or dad or her girlfriend or her mom, I better stop staring at her."

That was a very loud example. 

There are quieter ones. I experience these every day because I know what I'm looking for and how to respond

From my perspective:

I am sitting in a park. You enter and sit down. I don't know you but without staring I can see you're pretty and not holding a gun. Therefore I am not afraid of you killing me and I might want to have sex with you. 

However I know that you see me too, since I am dressed to attract feminine attention.

So what I will not do, is stare at you. That "opens the conversation" officially and neither of us is ready for that. Instead I observe you shyly and observe you observing me. You will soon conclude "he's not going to hurt me and he's hot." I will soon conclude "I am not scaring her and she may be interested."

*****

I hear and see this stuff from practice. Getting high and watching others watch me and then doing things to see how they react. 

When I walk down the street and a pretty girl is about to pass, or is walking behind me, I put on a little show. I "dance" and weave and walk very quickly, around cars and cans and poles and people. Acrobatically. You see me. You like it and somehow you know I am doing it for you. 

I hear it, when you are talking to your friend. You voice becomes animated. You put on a little show for me too, even if you aren't trying. You are reacting positively to me, this super hot boy, on stage just for you.

You inspire me and I cheer you up.

*****

Now that you've read this long story, let me make it short:

I am the best boy.